Tonight, i want you to take off my pants and show me exactly what you think of...– Fuck.
You mean a lot more to me than you know. No i’m not talking about “him” I’m talking about you. An Answer, Two pieces form Grow Break Falter And are left to drift in space. If i hold my hand out, will you grab it?
I kind of just like. Post things. Then delete them...
Mmm. Tonight is warm. Standing here on the boardwalk is beautiful. It reminds me of the time we sat talking. The times when i held significance. Its peaceful and thrilling here. I love the sound of the ocean, even if i’m a land lover. I feel good when i’m sitting here, when i’m alone, here. I’ve come to the conclusion that you only live once. So i’m going to live. Begin.
GET OUT OF MY FACE.
DO NOT SCREAM AT ME. DO NOT YELL AT ME. GET THAT FUCKING HAND OUT OF MY FACE. DO NOT LAY A FINGER ON ME. I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD. I WILL CALL THE COPS ON YOU. I WILL. TRY ME.
This is today. Sitting in a dimly lit room, a heavy chest. Every flicker of light is a mere word that sparks in my mind. The insanity. And until it is breathable, it is pain. Sounds, smells, Taste. Everything seeps into me. Every word, grabs onto my chest and squeezes. I repeat this, until it stops. Until i stop. I grip anything i can get my hands on. I do not let go, until my nails have dug...
Fuck me like you Hate me
You can do it. Just try.
The things we do just to keep ourselves alive.
So let’s face it, this was never what you wanted. But I know that it’s fun to pretend. Our blank stares and empty threats. Are all I have? They’re all I have? So drown me and if you can. Or we could just have conversation. And I fall, I fall, I falter. I found you before I drift away.
Now you still speak of day old hate Though your whole world has gone up into...
Lets keep the chemistry burning clean. And if theres a fire don’t burn it...
This sound..this takes me back. Back to the burning, and then back to the relief. It’s something that really puzzles me when i think about it. These strange feelings swarm my mind.. It’s like an endless sea. I hate cliche sounding things. But it’s what i see. An ocean. Tonight i have found relief. All it took was some breathing and a new mindset. I will still be stubborn as...
And just like that, i was not.. Magnificent.
I can’t call back. What the fuck am i going to say? What the hell am i going to do? I refuse to waste someones time, on my useless shit. Because the one thing i’m scared of the most, is being the same shitty person i was back then. Back when it all tore me in half. I’ll find a way to deal with this tonight. I have to.
No. Not really.
But i’m gonna be a bullshitting asshole and just say yes.
Lets toast. To feeling like shit, to being alone,...
Another worthless shitty night. Those damn strong, dead, unexplainable pains.